due to the knowledge
of facts this week or?
seems like the more i don’t notice it,
the more my mind will make me notice
even if it isn’t in reality
brought back to a really unexpected
person and happening and it was
certainly like a second chance
as if it would have mattered
then i woke up. 😂
“And it’s funny, in a moment like that, when what’s really happening is too intense to deal with, sometimes it’s best to leave it unspoken, and just enjoy each other’s company instead.”—How I Met Your Mother, 9x19 (via poppy-donut-half-sick-of-shadows)
why is it that the older i get the more it feels like the child dies a little more inside of me not that it isn’t good that people become mature and more understanding but where’s that connection now? that seemingly genuine vibe as the molecules vibrate and transfer to the other person where people used it as an excuse to have some fun and say, “nah, i’m psychic” and just laugh about it i mean there must be a reason why i am in isb right? but when i am conversing my eyes are laid upon their feelings accessing their thoughts their feelings, not their heart i can read their minds body language, posture, thinking about past, present or future but it is not like exchanging blows in a sword fight or battle maybe in this world that’s the only challenge that is the longest hurdle as well to be able to communicate not one’s mind or feelings but their heart
maybe somewhere along the way some of the people have lost their hearts maybe that’s why i can’t read them either everyone around has lost theirs or i have simply lost mine.
have you ever gone so close insanity? that it’s almost pushing you off the edge the intoxication of vomiting out every thought that comes with it the poise that everyone has when you have it the alertness and sharpness of a god the concentration that scares you and the anger that carries you like a wave doing nothing in that process but just flowing along and what scares you the most is not the hatred inside it’s how good your results are from the concentration that you have that is what clings unto you when you have no sense of direction all that matters is the result and they all say that hatred is the worse thing that is obvious to everyone truth is, it’s oblivious to the rider.
“Things that shouldn’t offend you: profanity, the opinions of others, Jesus followers who smoke and drink. Things that should offend you: poverty, drone strikes, famine, daughters being bought and sold.”—Brett Thatcher (via yesdarlingido)